Maeve at Seven Weeks, Time Passing Quickly

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One more Maeve close-up

In the last few days Maeve’s face seems more expressive, distinctly more articulate than even just last week

Tomorrow is seven weeks since Maeve’s arrival.  It feels like time is passing so quickly. I think its because becoming a parent just overtakes you in a way that not much else in life does.

Last night I dreamt that I was crying the way Maeve cries when she is really upset and in my mind I heard that what I was saying in baby talk was the word Mom, just Mom over and over. Maybe I was remembering how purely I felt when I was Maeve’s age – being around her is reminding me.  Its sad that many people in our culture are around infants as little as they are. It says a lot about our society.

I got connected with a holistic parents group in the last couple of days and feel a great sense of relief.  There are lots of other people who are cloth diapering and not vaccinating their young ones. Turns out I was going to a new moms support group that was just too mainstream.  I don’t think of myself as super alternative (always hoping/wishing I guess that my values aren’t the exception) but keep running into the fact that I am, even in a dense urban place like Jersey City.

She’s still pretty unpredictable. No discernable schedule. I get worried when she sleeps for long stretches during the day and worried/overwhelmed on other days when she doesn’t take a nap of any length.

When she is deeply asleep I get worried because her breathing is so shallow and her body gets so limp.

I think about writing about becoming a parent often but have a hard time getting myself to do it – partly because time seems to be flying by and I want to just be in the experience. From everything I hear, I’m going to be so busy for the couple of decades I won’t have a chance to read this again.

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3 Responses to “Maeve at Seven Weeks, Time Passing Quickly”

  1. Bob Says:

    That is scary eh Carrie?…when your little one sleeps so soundly…and their breathing is so shallow! We got concerned with the vaccinations too. In our whole parenting career only went to the hospital once for an illness. Breast milk is best! Glad to hear you’ve got other new mom’s to hangout with. One of these days, Maeve will be able to read what you both wrote…how excited you both were and how much you both loved her. Keep on writing. One day she’ll be all grown up and you’ll be amazed at how fast it went…and you’ll read what you wrote and get to relive the experience all over.

  2. Joe Linton Says:

    I liked hearing about your dream. I had the thought last week that Maeve had something really specific in mind that she was crying about… but that we adults just couldn’t quite understand what it was. You’re a great mom and I love you!

  3. Susan Palmer Says:

    Your dream was interesting. I think we all want our mom. I still find myself dreaming about my parents. I need to leave home & I am
    afraid of what I’m supposed to do . I still dream about teaching
    & how hard it was. I dream about you & Bob & you are little children.
    I awake & think “why am I dreaming that. I am 71 years old.” It
    all happened so fast & yes you hardly have time to think about
    what’s going on. I’m glad you are enjoying every moment and
    able to realize how wonderful it all is. I love you & Maeve.

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